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this photo was taken long long ago and i somehow managed to find it inside my com.

and yes, i was itchy mouth yet not hungry, so i peeled off the skin to eat, only. lol.

29-4-07

work's just tiring. =(

at least i'm quite satisfied with my work now. though it's really busy (!), and i dun have much time to eat. oh well, at least i'm saving money and burning more calories then taking them.

and the best thing of all, i dun have any supervision from anybody. hmm.. maybe sometimes the greeters will bully me a little, but at least i won't get any trashing from customers anymore. hahaha.

someone called to complain about how unfair her work is today. i see where its coming from. it's like, you've been committed to this company for years!!! c'mon! who works tt long with the same boss when you dun even have a pay raise? or rather, a pay cut. well, quite indirectly, but its still a cut.

she asked me wat to do. i agreed tt talking to her directly might hurt her feelings, or maybe both of them will get hurt, and things starts to get awkward blah blah blah.. but still i think she should. if she's on the verge of quitting, why not, right? at least you leave the company with your injustice being voiced out.

enough of tt. i'm upset tt a.j. got kicked out of antm. i love her!!! she's so beautiful yet not as brainless as typical ms beauty pageant who says world peace. =((( wat's wrong with having attitude?

and ya, i got greedy today and i thought it might be ok to steal a tiny weeny bit of the brownies i saw at my office today. and ya, i got my retribution. think the bit got into my gums or sth. it got swollen.

back to studying tmr. BORING...

i almost forgot sth. HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEPHANIE!!! =D

24-407

suppose to be studying, but i think i'm more of e-shopping and reading blogs. =p thanks to yuhua for introducing me some websites.

http://www.chocabloc.biz
http://www.cakeavenue.com
http://ww.wetseal.com
http://threadless.com

the 1st 2 are selling pastries. i'm choosing my birthday cake and i thought mom's chocolate fudge looks fantastic. i wana get tt 1!

finally saw kim's blog after so long. seriously i need to rmb her blog's name!!! but she keeps changing it though. haha.

ok, i admit. i though ME was easy. after going through it in details i realise i'm gonna be so dead. DEAD! really have to mug hard for this 1.

sabrina called me ytd and tell me she have remedial classes for today, again! she's always the last min and gettingherinforall wrong blur queen. haha. luckily i'm free the whole day today though, except i wana get a haircut.

my mum's making an absolute big fuss outta it cos she thinks my hair's already way tooo short. hey! not all gals wana go all girly and cute-cy, right? *roll eyes*

maybe i shall get 1 after my tut, and post the pics here, tt is if i'm free. haha.

work=dumb

just the other day, smone just told me most of my entries are angry posts.
shall make a difference for this entry then, but let's not forget about the angry part. =p

i just met a new friend call jessie!!!!! she's nice, cute, funny, str-forward, helpful! she helped me alot at work though i think i'm really a pain in the ass sometimes. thanks for helping me to find sm1 to cover me (though the rest ain't as helpful as you. =( )

oh ya, also clarence for taking over my shift,
kim for consoling + giving me ideas (+ cursing tgr with me those who deserved to be cursed),
ah toot for listening to me complain.

come to think of it, life ain't tt bad when i look at those friends who helped and listened. oh ya, thanks to tt asshole.

yes, i mean A-S-S-H-O-L-E.

yes, its william (i daringly put his name down here cos (1) there's so many williams ard, (2) not much ppl read my blog). he fucking sucks cos
1. he flirts with almost everyone (even though he's plain ugly yet he tries so hard to be cool but end up being beng)
2. he's sooo braggy about things tt i dun understand y he's so proud of
3. he's ignored me and cont flirting when i need him (fucking hell he's suppose to train me)
4. he told his colleague to tell the cust to fuck off when the cust hurry him for sth
5. why am i assisting him when he's suppose to train me? when i mean assist, it means to do simple things like folding the letter and putting it into the envelop.
6. he agreed to helped me when i have exams, then he told me no, and not to tell the mgr cos i am suppose to be independent. where the link?

and the list goes on. i mean, how bad can a person be? i fuck care the those can gets along with him so well and thinking he's a great gossiping or flirting partner, to me, he sucks. he's a pain in the fucking ass.

i curse him to be damn lazy one day tt he choose to walk this dark alley on his way home, meet a desperate gay bangalah, and you can guess wat happens next.

ah toot told me no need to curse so much cos he'll get his own retribution.
oh well, i guess i'm evil.

but still i love you babe!

NO COM NO COM NO COM!!!

it sucks not to have com. ask my brother. my com like his com. i still get scolded for using MY com. WHAT THE FUCK!

its already up to my limits. my lappy only cost like 1.7k, so he used almost ALL THE TIME. now wat? MY DAD'S GETTING HE A LAPPY NEAR 3K. IT'S FUCKING UNFAIR!!!!!

it sucks being the oldest, and it sucks being a gal. zhong nan qing nu. its seen everywhere. its a sterotype tt boys are more precious. FUCK YOU IDIOTS.

fucked up mood

in serious bad mood now. all thanks to my brother.

dun wana talk about it. its just sth it'll happen when you have more than 1 of you in your hse.

anyway i took away the tagboard. i dun think its much use also.

like wat i said, if i have sth, i'll expect returns. tt's y i rather take it away.

oh ya, dun ask wat happened. i think it'll just dampen my mood further.

blurrrrrrrrrrrrrrr

i was damn blurrr today.

as i was traveling to meet kim at bishan on a 88 bus, i saw tt the bus actually passes by sab's place. at least it was quite near.

so(!) after tuition today, i decided to walk to tt bus stop to take 88, as the usual bus i always take just gone and 88 stops just right in front of my hse. i walked to the bus stop, the bus came, and i took the bus.

everything seems smooth till like 15min later, and i still haven't reach my hse.

wth i should have waited for 159. i didn't know 88 takes tt long.

... until i saw a sign saying ang mo kio. wth!!! i took the bus from the wrong side!!!

really damn stupid, and damn blurrrrrrrrrr...
nvm about tt. all thanks to tt i didn't study today. waste my time...

watched the arena today, and i think maybe the RI boys get alittle tooo.. agitated? actually had quite high hopes on them, and i tot the little indian kid look kinda like hadi (so cute!).

i think RI guys are quite true in the part where in every schools they have their elites, be it sports or normal sec schs, but i think maybe they shouldn't blame it on the system but sgeans' attitude and perspective?

c'mon, even if the slowest person can get to a uni by sec->ite->itc->poly->uni. slower, but at least it proves this person is willing to work hard.

ah craps. i think the best way is to not think so much and go with the flow. saves loadsa brain cells, and thinking tooo much can't change anything anyway.

stupid women+craps

i saw this scene while i was on the travelator (is that how you spell tt?) sm time ago.

man: *trying to get past a bunch of youngsters who occupied one whole space of the travelator blocking ppl's way* excuse me.
gal (part of the clique) : COME ON! who walks on a travelator when it's moving for you?

COME ON! common sense tells you even though it helps you to 'walk', it doesn't stops ppl from walking! and i dun think she has the right to be tt sarcastic to anyone when it's not tt man's fault. and isn't it common sense tt the left sides are for ppl ain't walking, and right are those who are in a hurry and needs to walk? it's already rude enough to block the way and creates a 'human jam', and even worse when she made sucha comment. maybe it's just tooo embarrassing for her to say sorry, but at least SHUT UP. *roll eyes*

i think sg ppl ain't very well mannered, but still they ain't as bad and un-civilised as ***** ppl, maybe except for tt particular lady mentioned above. shan't say about ***** ppl as i may get sued. haha.

exams coming, and work flowing in as well. i kept have the feeling tt i am lack of time. but when i see the ppl ard me still having fun, ahh, tt's sth to think about it. so am i too up-tight or are they too slack? lol.

the meet-up today with my in-charge was quite ok, but smhow it made me feel even worse.
overall i think she's a very nice lady, and very concern for others, like me, thou she only meet-up with me for the 1st time. e.g. my coming exams. well, everyone like compliments and praises, but i think it sorta add on the burden to me. it made me think i SHOULD be up to tt standard. i dunno how well, but at least i should be competent. maybe cos i'm not cut out to be competent, tt's y i feel the stress.

nvm. i'm just gonna try my best and see how it'll turn out to be like.

expects to much

smtimes maybe i just dun cut out for this world.

when i blog, i EXPECT readers. when i dun see it, i dun blog.
when i sign in msn, i EXPECT friends to talk. when i dun, i rather appear offline.
i EXPECT a reply when i initate a conversation, or even when i just ask a simple qn. when i dun, i rather dun talk.
i EXPECT ppl to be appreciative. i EXPECT friends to be nice.

expectations gets others stressed up, as well as myself. i told myself not to, yet smtimes i think it's in-build in me.

maybe the best way out is to not have friends. lol.

why fit in?

"why fit in when you stand out?"

i got these words from "what a girl wants", and i find it beautiful. too bad, i dun think it applies to me.

spent the whole day at home slacking. didn't even study. i woke up at 10plus, napped twice. think i won't be able to slp tonight.

oh ya! i havent bathe. lol.