R-E-S-P-E-C-T

haven't been blogging. haven't been feeling so irritated for quite some time.

i couldn't emphasize enough.

RESPECT

RESPECT your family.
RESPECT your friends.
RESPECT who they are.
RESPECT the decisions they make.

fuck it. is that so hard. i'm not asking you to RESPECT their decision when they decided to kill their parents and run away with their money. i'm just asking for your acceptance for the everyday decisions. so minor that if you won't even notice if you stop being sucha b-i-a-t-c-h. in the first place, did i ever stop you from becoming one? no, i RESPECT you becoming/being a bitch, TOTALLY.

maybe i'm single for a very long time that i can never be tied down no more, maybe i'm not a person who can accomodate with your fucking feeling when it doesn't even affects the slightest part of you. so please, gimmi sm space. i haven't even start lecturing you about those i cannot stand about you, so stop nagging str in my face telling me to do this and that. i'm not your dog. don't think i'm the balloon in your mouth which you can control the size. no. maybe you can think of me as the ancient emperor. he can have tons of wives and even you know its ridiculously wrong, the only thing you can do is gossip softly behind his back. dun you dare let him find out. he might just rip your head off without even stainly his hands.

i really dun wana be such an ass. dun force me to.

for all you care i am mean, mad, anorexic, bulimic, punk, rock, lesbian, smoking, drugs, shopaholic, alcoholic. i am who i am. if you can stand me, then disregard my existence.

even said so, there's only a fine line between you thinking for me and thinking for you. like parents, they might wan their children to work hard so they can have a better future, or they can do they just because they wan 'face' among their relatives and friends. same results they are looking for, different total meaning.

i couldn't emphasize enough, talking bad behind your back doesn't makes me a hypocrite. wat i can say is everyone of us are different beings. we cant agree about everything with each other, not even twins. and i'm not cool enough to think and absorb every bit of irritations others cause. i need to complain, i need to rant to get that shit outta me. it won't stay healthy inside. like farting is wrong, but keeping inside is totally unhealthy. that doesn't make me a backstabber. god, think of it this way. shane thinks sleeping with others ok, yet alice thinks that even having the thought about other being is total immoral in a relationship. so does that make shane a betrayer? use your head.